A New Day

I am going to get the deposit and get that take care of today. It's the final step to committing to this process and what may or may not come of it. I've always been a girl of certainty. If I couldn't be certain of it's outcome I didn't do things. I didn't even try. But that's a very boring existence. I feel like life walks right past me and while everyone else has something happening for them I'm in a stalled state of being. I can't shake the feeling that I've wasted 30 years of my life and if I don't do this I will waste 30 more or all of it. I want to do things I want to have fun, I want to (OMG) make mistakes (something that I have refused to accept in the past), it's time to become a member of society and step up my life game plan. I thank my family, who at this point doesn't all know, but they will be behind me. And anyone who has taken a look at this little blog so far. May your life and day be bright and shiny.